What is COMMITment??

First i understand writing a long blog entry doesn't go well.So i'll keep it brief!!!
The inspiration for this entry has been my sick friends who have had to visit MU(medical unit).

It's like many a times i see couples roam around, boyfriend having to talk to his gf for long hours...having to take her everywhere....being with her in all situations(through long hours of beauty parlor!!!)....the same applying for the gal as well.....when all other boys even if just a friend become off shore for a talk!!!

i question many a times IS THIS COMMITMENT??is this the price for writing a simple tag on orkut relationship status!!!!

well if this is commitment then its really scary....
Now to main inspiration....i just doubt many a times my commitment to my friends....

Like wen they need me i should be there..right? wen they are ill...i should be nursing them....
wen they are sad i should be cheering them up...
But i just dont find my self at the right place wen something like this happens...wen i search for the answer....it's even scarier----m just too lazy...not that i dont care bout them but m just lazy..

Perhaps m not the right guy for commitment????

LoSt OpPoRtUnItIeS

Perhaps its the depth of the night that's making me write this entry...or Probably the fact that m in my 3rd year!!!(just 1 more year to graduate....)what ever it may be....

Many friends we have become our very good friends becoz we had common interests like in same dept....or were in same family.....But some times i think bout a lot of people who could have been my very good friends...but for the lack of initiative from either side....

This question arose again today wen a guy in the mess asked me bout how i was...and told me how his studies were going on....i used to work with that guy long time back and we had a good talking term....but as soon as our common interest no longer existed....the talking term vanished....The thought of the lost opportunity to have a good relation with that person haunted me as i left the mess....Perhaps we could have been very good friends..perhaps we could have shared a lot in common if only i had been more proactive...if only i had taken the initiative to go and start the talk...who knows what would have been the case..

But as i pondered over this question i found out that this is not a very rare event in my life...there have been instances where the person i thought was very interesting and i many a times felt that person also wanted to talk....but i just didnt....Perhaps every 1 of us has some incidents where we wanted to be friends with some 1 but we just could'nt.

There was another person in my first year....whom i wanted to be my friend....i just wanted to know about him...but he was not willing to open up....and unfortunately i stopped trying..we probably because of difference in branches...2 years later the person sends me a hi on gtalk...he said he thought about things that happened 2 years back...he said he was perturbed 1 day and wanted to talk to me...but never called...he was sorry he never opened up to me....and told me a secret of his....but still i didnt pay head to it...i just lost it...

i do regret what all i loose by not being open....tell the world what is true me.....

Theory of use of a boy by the girl friend...

i always wanted a place where i'll write things so very informally and really avenge my anguish over the things i notice but yet i cant tell any1 else....

This 1 is for some gal very intelligent, sober looking, decent and a good friend of mine...(or so i think!!).We met in our 1st year and i liked the way she was....It was me who approached...she was always calm and kept to her group...i started on a very foolish note asking the stupidest of questions!!!
Anyways...we were good friends....

Now let me bring u back in the present...Like always, i have tried to help out my friends..
But wen its a gal, sometimes the help feels like "being used".....Probably i have got it all wrong...
but its hard to think other wise when a gal asks you to get some info frm his boy frnd after a fight....wen they call you or ping you only if they are in some need....Its not been that i have not been the temporary rebound boy....there are a lot of gals who say that i m the no.2 boy in their life!!!

sometimes the anguish becomes huge....especially wen u see the person for whom u have done a lot isn't thankful even a bit...i feel many a times helpless and ya of course sad for poor boyfriends who have to follow what the gal has to say...

i really appreciate the intelligence of gal who can, without even getting involved get the bullet fired, keeping the gun on poor boyfriends' shoulder....Perhaps I'll never be able to understand the "theory of use of a boy by a gal" or the way to avoid such embarrassment...

But i'll just try and lookout for times and places like this to express my resentment...

The Journey Begins....

hi, many of u probably know me, many dont...but who actually is me???
This question perplexes even me...Perhaps my journey so far in my life may explain...

Initially i was very not so sure bout writing something like this....

But i guess my friends and a lot of people really deserve to know what all my life has been like..
It will be the incidents (and accidents) my life has Witnessed....

So here it goes....

I hope u travel along with me in my journey.....